VENTING, really bored, just started writing.
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Alec on Thu, 05/29/2008 at 5:02pm.
From the depths of hell until blood drowns all humans out, sins are taken ever so lightly, the thunder and wrath of god is closer than you think. but just to hear your voice makes me think iv figured out i cant be held responsible, just when i think I'm invincible you come and show me. because when i see you its like an angel is descending from heaven to me, id give up on all these dead end dreams just to be with you, because its not like me to follow through, when the world is done i will still think of you after death. even if there is no heaven or hell, my love for you will stay strong and allow me to think of you when the universe is gone. even though its much easier to just give in. but when your reaching for much more you cant do that. I just wish I knew How to apologize to you, wish i had a second chance, wishing things turned out different is all i feel i can do, because now i think its to late. trying to look at everyone with open arms is not easy, and caring seems to have gotten me ignored and though of as an obsessed person. with so many unaccepted, and unaccepting people in this world who will save us? when people are 2 feet from the edge of suicide people fail to realize it and pursue and circle them like vultures over a corpse. Ive been on both ends of this, and i can say its not fun either way, "Alex A.?" i saw him at a dance a few weeks after the whole computer thing, he was alone, wasn't dancing with anyone, guess what... i got him n someone els do dance, they had fun. when i look at the world and everything humans have done it brings tears to my eyes, at times life is unfair and you know because its plain to see, you think I'm just a speck in this world has god forgot about me? BUT BELIEVE IN THE LIGHT!!! Forget the Pain and Forgive the souls, you must be strong. Children, don't stop loving. There are sacrifices people have to make at times. it feels so good to live this life, and when you are with people you love you are careless and free. all the bad is eating me inside, u try to hold on but its sad to the bone, but hold it together. the sun shines and you cant escape the light, if your in a very happy place it spreads, if your happy people around you are happy. sometimes you feel like giving up, HOLD IT TOGETHER. and looking back at my life i see that i never got it right, and I'm sorry for the way i am, i never meant to be like this, I'm sorry about all my lies. there is no running away from your problems, and its best to change now than regret things later. but i still cant tell the things i hide on the inside...
By: Alec Fulwyler
just started writing haven't read what it says yet i don't even know what it says...
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